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Self Image and Depression


Recently, I bought some makeup products with the intention of appearing as flawless as the girls I see on YouTube. I was so excited because I have never been an avid makeup user; I may add some pressed powder for medium coverage of my acne scars, some mascara and lip balm then I'd be ready to go. But this time I wanted to go full on with the concealer, foundation, highlight, eyebrow pencil, lipsticks, the whole works. I ended up spending a week's money in a day but it could only afford cheap drugstore products. No surprise, upon reaching home and trying these products I was not satisfied. I felt so disappointed when I realized that to achieve the look I was going for the foundation would cost me US$48. I was so sad because I do not have that type of money for just one thing on my list. Besides, that was what I spent on all the cheap products I bought, realizing that made me feel worse.


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Also, about two weeks ago I damaged my hair from flat ironing everyday for an entire week. I know I was not suppose to do that but I did anyways. I was enjoying straight hair and the length, I never get to enjoy my length in my hair's natural sate, so I was having fun! When I washed my hair and saw how badly fried it was, I was angry with myself and ready to chop it off until I remembered the two years of dedication and immediately got depressed.

With those going bad for me I felt like my life was upside down. I didn't feel beautiful. I made those set backs distract me from all that was going good for me. I was focusing on my flaws which caused me to feel insecure. Luckily, I quickly caught myself getting depressed and I was not about to go in that downward spiral. I looked in the mirror and within myself; I don't have to be perfect or flawless, I just need to be me.

Don't let the standards of society determine your self image and make you depressed because you aren't what they want you to be. Work on you, with dedication and patience you'll be you want to be. No rush, make the best of your circumstances; time flies by so make sure you enjoy every moment.

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  1. Unknown22 October 2016 at 19:38

    I'm gladvu realised that there is no need for you to be caught up in society's fake beauty. I enjoy

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